I.
does she trip?
does she trip?
does she trip?
watch her fall!
bombastic movements in the serene air of the melancholy daze of my eyes
fading
fading
constantly fading
deny not
what is evident
in your mind
in your eyes
in your hands
even in your
lies
tick tock
tick tock
tick tock
all in the game, my dear
have you now lost that flair?
shame! shame!
because i will never forget your name
never. never. never.
flickering eyes
lips so sweet
your body so curved
and your body’s heat
i feel
twissssst!
twissssst!
let it all go
let it all go
let it all go.
II.
once in these arms
once in these arms
once
sweat dripping
lips meeting
bodies meshed together
they all said we go together like bread and butter
they all said we never needed to worry
they were wrong
wrong
wrrrrrrrrrrrrrong!
but i can still wish
to hold you
your sweet spot
your irises flaring
your pupils glaring
your nerves blaring!
urge
urge
urge
urge!
i can still taste the sweet water of your mind and soul and body and i know that it’s gone gone gone all gone gone gone all gone!
one moment in time
captured
splayed!
splayed!
lost.
again.
III.
i saw you again
there! you were there!
again!
i’ve lost the meaning that once shone through the tears and the nights and the softness that came out harsh and
dot
dot dot
that music i heard that reminded me of you has lost its pitch
it really sounds like shit now
space and time
space and time
the tricks that space and time play on us are innumerable
once i thought that time was a friend to be looked upon because he was so gracious when it came to apologies
and space. space! space gave me freedom to ride freely into time because they were both friends and i was a friend of them also
more than mutual acquaintances!
more than a memory that played incoherently during the storm
i like to fade in and fade out now
fade out.
IV.
i can only whisper now
i’ve lost my voice
my guts were splattered no the pavement when the trucks came to pick me up
i was a huge task
life was a huge task
you, my dear, were a huge task
i could never be what i wasn’t and i always was what i was
flutter
everything flutters
i flutter
i flutter
i flutter
in the end, no voices can remain
no screams
no yells
even the whispers have died down
the eyeballs just glare into wide open space only to see a blank white space
not so much of a memory lapse as it is a realisation of sorts
blink
and
blink
and
nothing
happens
nothing.